A little ego is ok

Envy, jealousy, anger and anger. It’s all legitimate feelings. There is no one in this world who is always happy, positive and balanced.

But the most important thing I’ve learned is not to get lost in a whirlwind of feelings. If you think about it rationally -- how unrealistic is the thought cycle of being jealous or jealous of someone or something that you have or can afford -- you hate yourself for that feeling, because it seems selfish not to give that one exactly in that moment. I’ll tell you, it’s very unrealistic.

Because every feeling has its raison d’être. Be it positive or negative. You can wish for so long that you don’t feel the way you feel, don’t think the way you think. But the sentence contains exactly the mistake. You have to give room to the feeling, accept it, and then figure out what you can do to prevent the sentences in your own head from forming into the negative, “I can’t..., I can’t..., etc. This doesn’t happen overnight. It takes a hell of a lot of practice and daily awareness of it, in the moments when such feelings occur.

That’s why I don’t like it (there’s it again, I can’t do it perfectly either) when I scroll through my Instagram feed and read sayings like “envy has nothing to do with a real friendship””, “If you can’t give your happiness to others, don’t be surprised if it doesn’t happen to you”.”

It’s fucking okay to feel bad or alone. When I read something like that and I’m not in a stable mental state of the day, of course I feel bad because I’m not in a position to give something to others right now, because I’m struggling with my own problems.

It’s all right.

It’s okay as long as you don’t blame anyone else for what you’re doing now. Because it’s the circumstances and many little things that sometimes make you feel the way you feel. By that I mean you and myself. There’s no point in hating myself for having such a negative feeling towards other people I care about. Self-hatred is the only feeling that is wrong, even if it has its raison d’être. Therefore, it is important to talk about it and, if necessary, to get help if the feeling suppresses all other feelings very often. Professional help from someone who knows the problem.

Even if your friends and all the people around you want to help you as well as they can, they are not the ass of your burden that can take away all your problems. The one who can take the initiative to change things is all you. I am myself. Implementing what you have learned and getting involved in it is also your sole task. My job. But you’re not alone in coping, you’re getting support. If you’re willing to accept them.

To get back to the headline – always stay with yourself during the whole process and, as the doctors say in the song “Cry for Love””, “You don’t have to project your self-hatred onto others so that no one will notice what a nice guy you are”.” Everybody’s selfish, and that’s okay. It is important, however, not to equate self-care with selfishness. On the contrary, if you take good care of yourself, it is easier to be there for others afterwards. So it’s kind of a jackpot – both you and the people around you feel fine when they realize you’re happy with yourself. Remember, you’re always in the first place in your life and it’s entirely up to you what you make of it. So, in all the hustle and bustle, don’t forget to be there for others and stand between the lines, the most important person in your life. Because that’s who you are.

April, 2022

Passender Song